Record of Washed Grievances Chapter 54: Qing Feng

Sigh… This was a sad chapter. ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚ I’m always sad with anything that is related to Qing Feng. I feel so sorry for her life… But I think Qing Feng is the strongest sister compare to Zhuo Qing & Gu Yun. That’s why even though I’m not fond of reading book 3, but I force myself to read it for Qing Feng.

This chapter was edited by Din2.

Outside The Palace Hall

It was almost midnight , the moon was already misty and did not have that magnificent and noisy feast. Even though it was still inside the imperial palace’s courtyard, it was also difficult to stop the erosion of the night. The moonlight was bleak, hiding behind the precious forest but it was still mixed with the traces of the moon. The chilly night wind was somewhat cool, but just enough to blow people’s mind to be awaken.

In front of the palace hall, two women with similar body shape’s appearances were looking face to face mutually. One person’s expression looked excited, her eyes were filled with sorrow. The other person looked somewhat awkward.

“Elder sister, you…. really do not remember me?” Looking at her elder sister’s eyes whom she had not seen for half a month, Qing Feng felt pain in her heart. Looking at her sister’s eyes that were bright and calm, she could no longer see the faintly pampering and the warm tenderness like in the past.

“I….” Zhuo Qing opened her mouth wanting to speak something, but she could only change into three words at the end: “I am sorry.” Even though it was not her wish to occupy someone else’s body, but it was already a fact that could not be changed.

Responding to Qing Feng, Zhuo Qing’s heart was more anxious with Lou Xi Yan who was inside the room. She could not hear any sound so it meant that she did not know what happened inside, Zhuo Qing’s heart was in a mess.

Looking at Gao Jin who was standing to guard the gate of the palace hall, Zhuo Qing was somewhat puzzled because he did not hand them over to the Imperial bodyguards rather he let them stand at the corner to wait. Thus, they were able to have the opportunity to talk, did he do this intentionally or unintentionally?

“I was the one who should be sorry to you, if it was not because of me who insisted on killing ourselves, it would not cause you not to remember who you were.” Elder sister was cold and detached towards her, it was because of her own’s sin. Just thinking when Qing Ling woke up not knowing who she was and helpless, Qing Feng was bursting in self guilt once again, losing her memory should be so terrifying?!

Zhuo Qing recovered, the woman who was in front of her did not have that stubbornness and icy arrogant like the one inside the palace hall a moment ago. She was blindly blaming herself and it made Zhuo Qing somewhat looked to quietly comfort and say: “Do not blame yourselves too much, the matter has already happened, the most important thing is that I am alive and well now, right?” Even though I was no longer the original person.

Qing Feng was still as before lowering her head, she had thought about this foolish attempt to commit suicide once, Zhuo Qing reminded her again and said: “But this killing oneself matter can not be done again in the future, only the weak will choose to escape and surrender. You should not be this kind of person.”

The weak would choose to use suicide to escape, was it right? As it turned out, all along, she seek to pursue integrity and with unyielding character, unexpectedly, it was just a sign of weakness!

Slowly raising her head, Qing Feng was staring at the direction of the inside palace hall, coldly answered: “You can feel relieved, I will not kill myself again because the person who should be dead is not ourselves!” It was Hao Yue’s incapable ruler who caused the death of their parents, and that instigator who was inside!

Her bright eyes were bursting out some hatred, it made Zhuo Qing slightly stump for words, Qing Feng’s vicious currents on her body made her uneasy, unfortunately, it was only for a brief split second, she recovered as before once again.

“By the way, have you seen little sister?” Since she could come and enter the Imperial palace, it should be easier to see little sister, right.

Zhuo Qing shook her head: “I have not.”

She was somewhat disappointed and somewhat concerned, Qing Feng sighed and said: “That General Su does not look like a good person, I am worried that little sister can be bullied by him, she is still very young.”

“Be at ease, ok. Su Ling as a General, his cold and uncommunicative natures are also very normal. Even though he can not be regarded as a scholar but he also is not an impertinent husband.” Briefly interacting at the main hall, she actually felt that this person, Su Ling was not bad. There was an existence of the military leader’s spirit and also did not lose to the cultural official’s poise, his words were not often for the whole evening but he was actually paying attention to everything.

This kind of man would not think of doing something unworthy and make things difficult for a woman, certainly, if that woman was more violent than the man, that would be another matter………. Qing Feng was not as optimistic as Zhuo Qing, Qing Mo’s nature was timid, ordinarily they would protect her, helped her to make a decision, what should she do since she was all alone now?! Why were their destinies always being manipulated by other people?!

Breathing deeply because she was afraid that her elder sister would be anxious, Qing Feng repressed her raging emotion, tried to calm down and said: “If Prime Minister Lou is able to persuade the Emperor to take you away, you go immediately to follow him, it is totally better than two people to go to the Imperial prison together, also, do not enter the palace to come and see me in the future.”

“Why?” She was not Qing Ling, originally, she had never had any plan to enter the palace again, but Qing Feng was deliberately confessing, Zhuo Qing thought it was somewhat fishy.

Qing Feng was slightly alarmed, could it be that elder sister saw anything? Telling herself to calm down, lightly shaking her head, Qing Feng deliberately and consciously explained: “Because the Emperor harbors evil intention towards you, if you go out, it will be better that you do not go walk right into the trap again. You do not need to worry about me, I will take care of myself properly. If your health recovers, just let people to bring me the verbal message, that will be enough.”

Something was amiss, her eyes were flickering, expression was deliberate, her mind surely had a plan. She did not know what she wanted to do after all, Zhuo Qing could only warn: “Qing Feng, be sure to consider it carefully before you do anything, an impulse action will not have any advantage at any time.”

Zhuo Qing sharpness and penetrating’s personalities made Qing Feng amazed endlessly, this person, was she really her elder sister?! Could amnesia really change someone this much? Was it good or bad that she changed like this?!

Qing Feng was still in doubt, but the male voice from the inside of the hall that could make people’s heart were frightened echoed again: “Somebody comes, bring the two of them to come in.”

Gao Jin looked towards them, both of them did not make any difficulty for him, obediently walked towards the inside of the palace hall.

Entering the inside of the palace hall, Zhuo Qing immediately discovered that the atmosphere was somewhat amiss.

Yan Hong Tian’s complexion was no longer dark, in between his eyebrows was still carrying a trace of dubious smiling expression. Looking at his expression also changed more and more strange than just when he was possessed and angry, it made her have even more goose bumps……. And Lou Xi Yan’s expression was still tranquil and calm, but his forehead seemed to have a heavy load in his mind, what did they discuss after all a moment ago?

“Qing family’s sisters, your matter about the identity exchange, Zhen will investigate it clearly later. Naturally will give you all the final conclusion, considering that Qing Ling is possible to have amnesia, this matter is pardonable. Zhen will allow Prime Minister Lou to bring you back to the manor to be looked after, before the truth is clear, you are not allowed to go out of the manor.”

Yan Hong Tian unexpectedly agreed to let her return to Lou Xi Yan’s manor?

What was going on after all? What did Lou Xi Yan do that could change Yan Hong Tian’s decision unexpectedly?!

She was very curious.

Looking towards Qing Feng, Yan Hong Tian coldly groaned and said: “As for Qing Feng, even if the officials from Hao Yue have made the mistake to deliver the wrong person, your mind is clear. Entering the palace and still assuming somebody’s name and taking her place, it is already a criminal to deceive the monarch, so you will go to the Imperial prison immediately and stay there until the truths about the investigation is clear later, and then you will be convicted.”

Go to the Imperial prison!

Qing Feng appeared to be prepared, deeply breathing, she was still standing proudly, neither ask for forgiveness nor crying.

The Imperial prison was absolutely not a good place. Although she and Qing Feng did not have feeling as sisters, but her heart really admired her. Could she really not able to save her? Zhuo Qing thought deeply. Lou Xi Yan’s clear and moist voice lowly echoed: “The Emperor is wise, Chen asks to be excused.”

“En.” Lightly waving his hand, Yan Hong Tian unexpectedly did not really make things difficult for them.

“Go.” Pulling Zhuo Qing’s hand, Lou Xi Yan shook his head lightly. Zhuo Qing understood clearly that she should not act blindly without thinking. Lou Xi Yan rescued her and it was already not easy. Turning around to look one glance at the meager woman who was standing at the main hall, she also happened to turn her head around.

Facing Zhuo Qing with a slight smile, Qing Feng completely turned her head around, no longer looking at her. Accepting the matter, she needed to bear this alone.

Yan Hong Tian, it would be best that you did not let me live, otherwise….

Lou Xi Yan was leading Zhuo Qing to leave, her brain had this lingering feeling, about Qing Feng with that same gorgeous fireworks and momentary smiling expression. For the first time, Zhuo Qing profoundly realized that she was too powerless in this different era.

28 thoughts on “Record of Washed Grievances Chapter 54: Qing Feng

  1. This version of the story is good as well. I’m glad to be able to catch some sister time through all the chaos that ensues.
    Thank you for the chapter! I’m looking forward to our main being house arrested together.

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  2. Yang Hong is reasonable to a certain extent. If he was like other xianxia rulers, he’d immediately snatch ZQ away from LXY. so there’s hope for him yet. Thanks for the chapter Sian and din2.

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    • One more chapter & we’ll be out of the palace. But that doesn’t mean that YHT is done showing up in front of ZQ or us. ๐Ÿ˜‚

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  3. Thank you for the touching chapter. Awww.. ๐Ÿ˜ขQing Feng.. She’s just too good.. persistent, courageous, also strong and tough. Clearly the one that suffered the most, if comparing with Zhuo Qing as Qing Ling and Gu Yun as Qing Mo.. but still had deep self-blaming while feeling regret and hatred.. so tragic.. that’s not some healthy feelings to nurture.. To think of that, I can not bear to read her story in the cold palace.. Why it should be with Yan Hong Tian?๐Ÿ˜•๐Ÿ˜ฃ Why??? She truly deserves a better man that can understand and love her more. Anyway,Gu Yun has the cool Ao Tian and Zhuo Qing attracted the adorable bounty hunter.. Qian Jing.. how about Qing Feng? Does she also have another male that at least worthy of her? Excluding Yan Hong Tian off course.. and sorry again for the random emotional ramblings.. also for this dislike of Yan Hong Tian.. hope I do not offend any fans…

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    • I don’t think you’re the only one who doesn’t like YHT. Actually, there’s a guy that’s been helping QF in the palace. I actually love his character. His name is Ming Ze & he’s an imperial bodyguard. He comes from a good family background but his mother is only a small concubine so he hates being one of the sons of the Ming’s family. I actually love his character so much that I want him to pursue a relationship with QF’s right hand maid, Fu Ling. Fu Ling is also a good support for QF in the palace so despite her pitiful life, QF is definitely not alone which is good.

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      • Good then! At least Qing Feng still has some support.. She need it very much.. especially with all the schemes and plots in the palace, and with Yan Hong Yian as the emperor..
        But she in the end still fell in love with the emperor.. *facepalm*

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      • There’s a very fine line between love & hate. I’m sure you have heard about that. QF hates YHT so much and vice versa so both of them helplessly fall in love with each other. ๐Ÿ˜Š

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      • Yeahhh.. I think so too.. fallen in love helplessly.. that’s really a suitable phrase to describe their inevitable relationship. Who can blame love? ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ฅstill..couldn’t help to wish right? That Yan Hong Tian fallen hard for her while she continues to be indifferent and does not have any care towards his affection. And made him regret all his harsh treatment to her in the remain of his life. That would be wonderful.๐Ÿ˜ˆ๐Ÿ˜† *sweet sweet revenge*

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    • She does have one but he’s just kinda right there(Ming Ze). In the current translation, they only had a few silent, but somewhat a little meaningful, interaction.(with additional 3rd wheel on the side[Fu Ling] but there is really no problem).

      We all hate how their relationship(YHTxQF) was born at the beginning. But that hate itself is what binds them together forming the love in the process. In between them knowing deeper about each other, the hate dissipates, leaving only the love that they created then nurtured.

      Probably that is one of the reason I like the 3rd book more than the first 2 books. Its love x hate is so intricately connected that you can’t point out which is which, when did it begins? how did it ends? yet you seemingly understand that’s how everything will end up.

      I still want to tie up YHT and bash him with my teaspoon though

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      • Thank you for kindly explaining to me. I haven’t read the third book in this series, so I don’t know how good is Ming Ze. But at least I know that he’s better than Yan Hong Tian in several aspects. One of them is his behaviour towards our beloved Qing Feng. From your reply, it seems that he treated Qing Feng and her maid with respect and care. But even though he’s a good man, unfortunately he can’t win against the emperor. And Qing Feng in a sense was indeed the emperor’s woman. So, there’s no hope for them even if they love each other which even isn’t the case. About her and Yan HongTian’s relationship.. after seeing your explanation.. I think it’s okay. At least their’s not an insta-love thing.. (Like suddenly fell in love with their own sworn enemy).. but as you say, a slow process to get to know each other first.. and in the middle or end, probably get the chance to understand each other’s feelings.. Oh.. and for your last sentences in the comment, I agree with you so much. ๐Ÿ˜Š Although we can accept their relationship in the end, we cannot help to get annoyed with Yan Hong Tian’s handle of Qing Feng in the beginning and middle of the story. At least give ten kicks to his stomach, and five slaps to his handsome face, but maybe even that’s still not enough? ๐Ÿ˜ˆ๐Ÿ˜ก after all.. in the most part, he’s not adorable at all.. Also sorry for my harsh comment of the emperor. Maybe I will change my opinion after I read the third books. But that’s still a long time, because I plan to finish the other two books first. So.. in this comment again.. I really mean no offense..โ˜บ

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  4. I just realized that my comment has some typos.. The word “Male” should be “Male lead” and that sentences “She truly deserves a better man that can understand and love her more..” should have at least three exclamation marks.. just to emphasize.. sorry for spamming..

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  5. I agree Qing Feng had the hardest time out of all the sisters, but I don’t know if I agree about her being the strongest. I believe Zhuo Qing and Gu Yun are both very strong emotionally too, so one way or another they’d have managed, but I reckon it was best for Feng than for them to go to the palace; she was just more familiar with the ways of that era than they are so she was more prepared.

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    • I said that QF is the strongest of the 3 sisters is just because she’s the only original suster who’s from the ancient time. We knew how women in ancient time were treated by the men so even though she was from the ancient time, her strong personality is just like the women in modern time. For example, she was the one who forced them to scar their faces and kill themselves instead of agreeing to become tributes to the dominant country. Now I do understand that some people think that killing themselves were actually a cowardice act just like when ZQ said to QF when they first met, however under the circumstances that they had to deal at that time, I didn’t blame QF at all for telling her sisters to do those two things. The fact that the two sisters followed her lead also showed me that QF was the strongest & more opinionated woman. Now ZQ & GY are also strong women, however, they are from modern time. They are equipped with the knowledge that women and men can be equal in modern time while women and men will never be equal in ancient time. So they have to be strong because they grow up in the 21st century as opposed to QF who grows up in the ancient time. But of course, this is only from my humble opinion. ๐Ÿ˜‰

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  6. That is very true. I am in agreement there; Feng was clearly the strongest among the original sisters, so, somehow, she was the best match among them. From her description of Ling and Mo, the two of them would’ve been killed since the beginning.

    Suicide is cowardly, as Feng herself seems to have realized how this was perceived by others in this chapter. However, scarring one’s own face takes BRAVERY for sure. Gu Yun and Zhuo Qing as modern women are able to accept it because they obviously aren’t the type that cared about appearance too much, fortunately; even today many women would cry if that happened to them. Because Feng was from that ancient era, she instead must have been raised to care about her beauty to some extent, but she fought against that.

    I may strongly dislike Yan Hong Tian (a slow improvement from my initial abhorrence towards him), but it’s hard to say Feng is not awesome and quite suitable to be a Queen.

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  7. Just caught up with Gu Yun’s story๐Ÿ™‚ !!!

    “This kind of man would not think of doing something unworthy and make things difficult for a woman…”

    ^ LOL HAHAHAHAH

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    • So you’re laughing because that statement is a total opposite of what Su ling will do?? ๐Ÿ˜† But I know where you’re coming from. Su ling & Gu yun’s relationship is sort of “dysfunctional”. Hehehe… I think in ZQ’s point of view, Su ling will be the type of a man who will not cheat. Plus even if Su ling will not make things difficult for Gu Yun, but I’m sure that Gu Yun will somehow “challenge” him accidentally. Gu Yun is an instigator after all…

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